Little fume of my coffee started to vanish that it smelled less stronger now. Or, maybe it’s just I got used to the smell. As it reminded me that I’d been sitting in the corner of the coffee shop for too long. And I hadn’t drunk even a sip of my coffee, that had gotten far from hot now.

“Always drink your coffee while it’s hot.” That was what Anne always told me. Funny, that I, as a man, was always to be the one who was less masculine compared to her. From ocean diving, to the love of coffee. She was the one introduced me to a habit of drinking coffee sugarless. She said, we should not drink coffee with sugar. Even though sugar gave a sweet taste to it, still, coffee was never meant to be consumed with sugar. When you love coffee, you would mind how other different particles might ruin its taste. That was her philosophy about coffee. But I still couldn’t drink it a hundred percent sugarless. And, I would always be a joke to her for this. Her mocking at me on this usually always ended up with me getting pissed off. But it felt differently now. It made me smile by only thinking of it.

I was not my self recently. I had been avoiding people. Friends, family, whoever it was. It was like the need of my personal space just elevated. Been couple months. I didn’t feel like talking much and had been preferring hearing myself more than others.

I was surprised myself that I enjoyed all these. Going out, buying my own self some coffee, and just sitting there like the loneliest person on earth, only to finaly leave and ignore the miserable coffee I did not bother to touch.

I was sure that to be by myself was all I needed. I didn’t know why, but it was just, I felt the way people were acting to me recently was so overwhelming. I couldn’t stand their every are-you-alright or their other way of expressing sympathy. And I was sorry that they thought I needed all that.


It was not exactly what they thought and sought. I really wish they would stop asking. Cause I didn’t even know whether I was sad, or mad. What I felt inside was so unfamiliar. Things were just so strange that most of the time I felt the world had stopped moving and I could barely hear things other than my own self. And this heavy feeling on my chest, was the thing that I had never been able to get rid of.

I could only hope that one day, I would wake up in the morning feeling life has been normal again. That I would not mind any more sympathy or simply a pity. That people’s condolence and I’m-sorry-about-Anne thing would just feel like any other normal words. And that this feeling of missing her would cause no more pain on me. That my coffee would taste fine sugarless. One day…



The Originals: from The La’s to Al Green

Black coffee, dark chocolate, sugar-topping doughnut, and the like.  I call them the originals, the irreplaceable-s. I always think that there’s something in the original version of which any new invention (in flavor or such) could never replace. Unsurprisingly it also happens to my music preference, when speaking of those cover songs that at some points, over time, become more popular than the original ones.

Well, listed below some of them which, perhaps, some people just don’t realise that the songs are actually the covers of the less-popular ones of some great musicians that were sung initially many years earlier. So, through this random post, I’d love to give credits to those musicians.


1. “There She Goes” by The La’s

Name some of other musicians covering the song like The Boo Radleys (1993), The Wombats (2008), Robbie Williams (1998), “There She Goes” became a hit again around the year 2000 when the cover version by Sixpence None the Richer was listed on the OST of Snow Day movie. This cover version was actually released in 1999 on their self-titled album, just about 9 or 10 years later after its original version. Yes, it was one of the hits of The La’s back then in 1990. And, I really love how Lee Mavers (The La’s‘ vocalist) sang the song originally with his unique vocal character. Well, Sixpence None the Richer is one of those bands who succeeded at the recycle.

2. “Don’t Dream It’s Over” by Crowded House

I’ll be still mentioning Sixpence None the Richer here, as the band was the one who has resurrected the song and made it to the billboard once again in 2003. The song was originally written and sung by an Australian rock band, Crowded House. The song was released in 1986 as one of the tracks from their self-titled debut, and succeeded to the top of international billboard a year later.

3. “Come On Eileen” by Dexys Midnight Runners

I guess most of those growing up around 90s will likely to relate the song with the ska band Save Ferris. It is undeniable that “Come On Eileen” has become Save Ferris‘ most successful single to date. No wonder if many people still don’t have idea that it wasn’t originally sung by the band. Yes, honey. It actually belongs to an English band, named Dexys Midnight Runners. “Come On Eileen” was a single from their album Too-Rye-Ay. It was released in UK around 1982.

4. “Bizarre Loves Triangle” by New Order

There will be this kind of talk, “Hey, do you know “Bizarre Loves Triangle”?” And there is this answer, “Oh yeah, Frente!‘s song?” Few that usually directly recall the original band who wrote the song.

So, long story short, it is one of the hits of New Order, an 80s English rock band popular with their new wave or synth pop dance music. The song was initially released in 1986 and was one of the contents of their album, Brotherhood.

In 1994, Frente! covered the song in acoustic format. The cover actually has brought up the sweetness of the song that does not really show up in the original version. It was said to be Frente!‘s only major overseas success.

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Instant Frontier: Book, the Weapon


To introverts, places may seem strange and may lead to insecurity. But, the thing is we, introverts, are really good at creating an inner circle that provides us with boundary. It is a kind of ‘self-protection’ from unfamiliar things (or people). It makes us feel safe. Any where, we build this invisible space that separates us from the outside world. It forms a kind of ‘local‘ that detaches ‘the inhabitant’ from those present outside this designed space. And, in that special zone, we can do things giving us comfort. In my case, one of those things is reading books. In public transports, in hospital waiting room, while queuing at bank, while eating alone, in toilet, any where, book is a media that gives us a celestial instant frontier.

In this post, I compiled some pictures of books I read (physical or electronic) over time across many different places. Books are my weapon.

Previously uploaded in my instagram account.